Its been a period of challenges creatively for me. I have been wrestling in silence, unable to write, with a specific pivotal connection I needed to make in a chapter in what I hope will be the final creativeÂ edit of my book. I have felt enourmously pressured to figure it out, becauseÂ my ideas are so close to being connected; yet IÂ have not been able toÂ articulate how they fit cohesively together.
I have spent overÂ eight months of time onÂ this book,Â and as each day passes my commitment to the project and desire to see its outcome grows; which is likely the source of the pressure I feel.
Yet through my song writing diversions, which has been liberating and freeing creatively,Â perhaps because I am yet unattached to this process and amÂ allowing myself the freedom to try this new thing; I feel no pressure at all!
Perhaps its exactly that sensation of creative freedom, without myÂ judgements interfering,Â that has allowed me to finally write the three pages late into last night thatÂ I needed to connect my points together into a solid cohesive compellingÂ thought.
Its funny how writing this book started out the same way, as a freeing experience, and as I have become more involved in the creative process of it, I need new sources of creativity to recreate my ability to be creatively free.